November 8th

My mom still has a Facebook page. I’m not sure how to make it go away. I’d probably have to get my dad’s permission to do it, and I’m not sure I want to have to take that three-way phone call. (Remind me to tell you the story of his cable bill.) Anyway, the fact … Continue reading →

Without that, you might just as well be made of bronze

Once upon a time, I did community theatre. In April 2001, I was 25-years old. I somehow landed the part of 15-year old Dinah Lord in The Philadelphia Story. The play takes place in the few days before the wedding of Tracy Lord, Dinah’s sister. Mark Ferman (4th from the left in the picture) played … Continue reading →

Jinxy

We never intended to have another cat. When we moved to California, my wonderful, compassionate, lovable Katchoo died. Sassy remained, and, over time, became a loving, huggable kitty too. But Sassy did not like other cats. We had a kitten, Giles, for four short months (he died of FIP). Sassy had hated Katchoo, and she … Continue reading →

On Crying

Many people on the Inter-tubes have been remembering where they were on September 11, 2001. Max and I had just moved into our first new house, in New Hampshire. I was on my way to work, listening to the news on the radio when the second plane hit. I got to work, checked my mail, … Continue reading →

The Month of May

It starts before May 1st. The marketing targeted to that second Sunday in May. Mother’s Day. “15% off gifts for Mom!” “Get Mom what she really wants!” Even my iPhone alerted me, “Start a game with Mom!” Et tu, Words with Friends? You know what I bet my mom really wants? To meet her granddaughter. … Continue reading →

Two Years Ago

Two years ago, I got a call before 8 o’clock in the morning. Two years and just a few days ago, my mom was still alive. Last year, I went to the cemetery and talked to my mom. Then, I went shoe shopping. That night, some friends took me out and I got more smashed … Continue reading →

Adoption Carnival: Mother’s Day

This post was originally published on AdoptionBlogs.com on May 10, 2010. Republished here with permission. This month’s Grown In My Heart Adoption Carnival is inspired by Ernest Hemingway. Once asked to write a full story in six words, legend has it that novelist Ernest Hemingway responded: “For Sale: baby shoes, never worn.” We all know … Continue reading →

I Suddenly Realized

(originally posted on LiveJournal) I’ve been up ’til 2am most nights for the past 2 or 3 weeks. I usually work until midnight, then I do my Adoption Blogs post and read to kind of calm down. My brain is full, and though I’m insanely tired, it takes awhile to calm it down. Last night, … Continue reading →

Life Update

(originally published on LiveJournal) Now, the yeah-that’s-great-but-I’d-rather-have-my-mom-back part: My sister and I were the beneficiaries on my mom’s checking and savings accounts. My father is OK with this. He insists he has enough to live on. I may call my uncle (his accountant) and make sure, but still… Anyway, we got our checks. I’m just … Continue reading →

4 Weeks

(originally published on LiveJournal) My mom died 4 weeks ago today. I’m still wondering when it’s all going to hit. Between stress at work and being a Mommy, it’s not tangible yet. I have my Mom’s ashes in the beautiful urn we chose. I have to take pictures, because we’re going to inter them whenever … Continue reading →