Once again, DesignZ by Dede poses a question about family. (And yes, I know that, by the time you read this, it will be Thursday.)
Describe each member of your family. How do you see/feel about your parents, your siblings, your spouse, and your children?
This could take awhile… No, is too much, let me sum up…
Everyone here knows that Jack is 4 and is the most amazing little boy on the planet. I’m seeing some of our habits manifest themselves in him, and I worry about that. I don’t want him to be as stressed as his dad and I.
Max is a complicated guy. I guess I just wish that I knew what I could do to make him happier. My senior year of college, I remember saying something to him like, “I could totally make you do whatever I want.” And it’s true. I can. I try not to use that power for evil, but sometimes, I just don’t think about it. I know what I want, and that’s that.
My mom passed away in May. My relationship with her was complicated as well. I wasn’t the daughter she wanted, and she wasn’t so much the mother I needed. She had a big heart though, and she loved her grandsons. I think life dealt her a bad hand, and she never really got over it. I miss her.
And, speaking of complicated relationships, there’s my dad. He’s 72 right now, 12 years older than my mom. He had meningitis when I was 4 – one of my first memories is of my mom and my grandma (who died in 1980) helping my dad down the hall out the door to take him to the hospital. The disease and/or the medications for it left him with the emotional maturity of a 12 year old. I think everyone would agree that 12 year olds shouldn’t be raising kids. I’ve put a lot of my childhood in a box in my head, and I don’t go anywhere near it. If I did, I think I’d end up like my mom, just too overwhelmed to overcome it. My dad is like a big kid, and sometimes it’s just best to let him do what he wants. Of course, he wants everyone else to care about what he cares about. He’s a gardener. I kill plants. I’m pretty sure that disappoints him.
So, yeah, that’s us in a nutshell.
- Current Location:home, Antioch, CA
- Current Mood: awake